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7 months tomorrow. Can hardly believe it.
Lileeva's separation anxiety seems to be dying down a little.
As it happens though, I'm having the same issues again (Mainly with myself.) than before. Since the weather became proper shite, again, all what we do is sitting in the living room, Lileeva is playing with the same toys and we may or may not watching cartoons. I'm scared of her getting bored, and yet we are together 24/7 feels like I don't spend any quality time with her whatsoever. I signed up to babycentre to get weekly updates on Lileeva's development and on useful games I can play with her.
Weird, thought I was a member already, since this is the site which helped me through my pregnancy and pretty much all my baby related questions. Anyways, even though at this stage all baby is different, I'm sure it will come handy. (Yes, they are different. Lileeva has two teeth, prefers porridge over finger food and can't be arsed rolling over, nor has she any strength in her legs. Loki, who's a month behind her, has no teeth, bangs on finger food, is rolling over and can stand with support, but isn't yet able to sit by himself.)

Discovered today that Lileeva likes books! She blatantly likes phones and remote controls, but I'm happy she's interested in books too. Thinking about it, she was always reaching out for the actual one I was reading at the time, but sitting her down on the rug she packed all of them out from the bottom of the coffee table. Twice.
I also sat down with her this evening, and was reading to her. I got these fanfold baby books, with short Hungarian poems in them, and big colourful pictures on each page, related to the actual poem. Now the book we were reading was all about cats. I explained what is on each page, pointing at the flowers, bowls, cats, mice and so on, then closed the book. Opening again, page by page I asked Lileeva 'Where is the kitty?' and she pointed on the cats, didn't miss any of them, no matter how small the drawing was! I was well surprised and beyond proud! Shame on me, even I underestimate babies.
Incredible they are.

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I just don't understand some people. When someone wants to hit you low, they insult you via your 'bloody child' and so, just to say the least. It happened before, while I was pregnant, happened again and will happen many more times I'm sure.
I find it funny, sad and disgusting at the same time. Mainly cause it's usually coming from people who don't have kids. I assume their friends don't have children either, otherwise they'd let them know it's not the nicest thing to do. I'm not hurt over it, surprised maybe, cause I think this is the lowest low where someone can go.
Bit upset maybe... Where has this world come to?! People cuss of innocent babies whom has nothing to do with the subject whatsoever. These people also probably not aware of the fact that babies are the purest humans of all. They don't know what lie is, have no interest of using you and so.
These people must lack of basic intelligence.
Anyways, these things are just confirmations of knowing that I'm way better than that, therefor I raise Lileeva better than some people would or do. And, of course, make me utterly happy about my life and the wonderful people I'm surrounded by. (Yes, by the look of it there is space and use for dickheads in this world.)

It's official now: Lileeva is a Peppa Pig fan! She loves both her teddy and the cartoon. Not sure what is so fascinating about it, but hey, could be worse. She probably will grow up to me a bacon lover too haha!
She also had her first meet with a dog! They loved each other, Lileeva looked pleased of getting the dogs full attention, not like Kitty's who keeps running away from her.

We've been out on Friday with the in-laws and a family friend who seen Lileeva for the first time then and there and suggested to chance modelling with her. The idea behind it is to sign up with an agency/agencies that give out her portfolio to clients, who then choose whether they want her for the shoot or other baby/babies. The money she would make goes straight to her account which she can access when she's 18, I have no interest of it at all, and that's how it's right.
I think it would be great, but for sure has pros and cons. Pros are that it's a very good opportunity, a good start, might even be a milestone in her further carrier if she chooses to. The younger the better, cause she would grow up being natural in front of the cameras. I remember when my mum done the same business with me when I was around 13, I failed miserably. Oh, the nerves... Con is the same of course, the age. Since Lileeva is so young, if she gets jobs frequently she can grow up to be, well... Stuck up. But here comes good parenting in the picture.
Anyways, don't want to jinx it, but so far I got good feedback from agencies. Will wait a little more then choose the one(s) looking the best.
As of parenting on a further base: Lee still says he doesn't want me to go back to work, which I don't mind cause of Lileeva. Do on a way of getting bored, and scared of Lileeva getting bored of me too maybe?! My friend said she thinks I'd be able to sign up for benefits, but we are not that tight yet and I also don't like poncing. (Should point out here even if I was to sign up for anything I'm still not a single mum, and still white. Enough said.)
Also, seems like I have an opportunity to do a course the end of the summer, so -and again, don't want to jinx it- hopefully I'll have the qualification to do what I always wanted to. Then so I can start to work from home, and by the time Lileeva is school age, I might even be able to have a secured job.
Fingers crossed.

Edit 16:41
I got a call from the Housing today regarding our Housing Benefit. We are entiteled for a massive £4/week. The excuse is that Lee earns 'too much'. Yeah, right. Another proof of if you work and do everything right, you get fuck all help.

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Obviously the night following my previous post Lileeva woke up crying about 3-4 times. Seems like it was a one off thing, now she's just keep waking up earlier than she used to. Hope it won't last long either.
This separation anxiety thing is getting better, by the look of it she understands when I say that I'll be back 'in a minute' and show my trigger finger to her. She is still moody and has huffs and puffs, usually the afternoon, but reckon it has something to do with tiredness and that she has a cold now too.
Lileeva also dribbles a lot again, probably signs for her third toothy pegs breaking through.

We are spending a lot of time over Victoria Park, since the weather is awesome lately! I think she likes to get out, regardless the heath.
I even bought a massive plastic washing bucket thing for her to the balcony, where a paddling pool wouldn't fit. Yet to come the fake grass and her private beach is done.
I picked up some biscuits and finger foods for her, and a wheetabix like muesli too. It's time for her to discover different textures at last.

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No, it's not getting easier with time, although the problems from the first couple of months do disappear, but there are others taking the empty places.
We don't anymore have to worry about wind cause Lileeva burps by herself. Not much of a stomach ache either, of it does happen every now and then we know it's cause of the amount and thickness of solids she's eating so we can work on it.
Speaking of which, we have a new routine again! I might have taken it too far this time, but Lileeva doesn't seem to mind, in fact she didn't even notice. She used to have 3 bottles and 3 pureed meals a day, but I cut down for 2 x 240 ml bottles now, one straight after waking, one before bed. So now she's eating only every 3 hours and I'm not worried of leaving the house for longer cause I can take jarred food with me, no hussle of warming the milk up and so. (No, she doesn't take the milk cold, unless it's a really hot weather.) I'm still making a couple of her meals with formula, so she has the recommended 500-600 ml milk intake daily.
We even started to brush her two lonely teeth on 18th Friday or 19th Saturday, can't remember when exactly.

She had bit of trouble with her bum when we were in Hungary, but it was more likely caused by the combination of heat (And sweating.) and her rabbit poo nuggets. We are now using baby powder on her so the problem is solved.
She also rolled over yesterday from her belly to her back, twice! I haven't seen it and she's not willing to repeat it, but Lee says Lileeva was well surprised with herself.

My main problem nowadays is that she's doing something which looks like she's manipulating us, real bad. I feel just as angry as I felt the first couple of months. Pointless fucking screaming and I do wonder about stuffing a ball made out of newspaper in her mouth. No, she's not that baby you have to have in your arm 24/7, we were watching that matter carefully from the very beginning. She's alright with sitting or laying alone, but don't we dare turn our backs and leave the room for a second cause she starts off! Not moaning, not crying... Forced screaming it is.
Done a research about it and been said that at this age they can't manipulate, it's more likely to be separation anxiety. Basically a phase in life, when she realises that I am not her and she is not me anymore, that she is an individual little person... Who's vulnerable therefor freaks out when I disappear cause she doesn't know whether or not I'll return. Make sense really, it just really is annoying, I can't go to the toilet without having her crying, damn it!
I feel pretty shit now of shouting at her, if this is the case really, not the manipulation.
No, I won't be carrying her on me all the time. Instead I'll try and tell her every time I leave the room, that I'm going to be back, and when I return I'll give her a hug and tell her I love her. Hope it works.
It's proper hard, especially cause the only times she's alone (Apart from night time sleeps which we don't have problems with, knocking on wood.) are during the days Lee's asleep, before his night shifts. Sucks much?!

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On Sunday we went out to see my mates and quite an amount of people got together. Szabolcs and his sister Anita, Flóra and Luca. Everyone was mesmerized by Lileeva whom handled the cooler weather much better than the heat.

 Monday we stayed in due to hangover and tiredness, even though we supposed to meet with Szabolcs's mum whom I haven't seen for years. Shame on us.
Tuesday we headed out in town again, ending up in Arriba with lots of people once more. Makes me utterly happy that so many of them are interested in us, well, mainly in Lileeva. I know of myself it's difficult to hang out with friends whom newly became parents but by the look of it my mates don't find it frustrated but fun instead.

Went out Wednesday too to catch up Alma for the last time, we saw massive gold fishes and tiny duckies in Milleneáris. Not sure if Lileeva was amused though haha. We all got really tired so split early.

Spent Thursday at home with packing then flying back home.
Again, Lileeva was an angel on the flight! We didn't even feed her at all cause she was asleep the whole time. Well proud!
It was nice to have a holiday, but all of us were relieved when arrived home, even Lileeva was all smiley, recognising the flat and sleeping in her own bed.

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Happy 6th month princess! Can't believe Lileeva is half a year already!